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Month: April, 2013

Closing Time

This really marks the end of everything. The tombstone of the event I invested all my time in… I came into the stadium clinging on to that little thread of hope that I could run the 4×400. Well it turned out otherwise which was an expected outcome to be completely honest. I’m not upset about my injury or that I didn’t achieve anything but I feel greatly injusticed that I couldn’t go out there and run even after all the effort I put in. But now this is really the end. No more wishing and hoping. It’s exam after exam after exam… Which culminates in the inevitable and brutal Os. I’m gonna really miss this part of me, my teammates, the competition, the experiences, even the pain and struggles. Even though I did not get anything materialistic out of it, I could safely say track has made me a more confident and persistent person. However I’m not entirely convinced I should have poured so much time Into it. But the past is past and cannot be changed. I guess I have to work towards the next best thing and give it my all. But I really just can’t help but feel alittle nostalgic and down. They say the transition is never easy… I’m gonna miss these times:'(

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An End signifies another Beginning

Today was my 400mH at the Nationals Championships. Unfortunately, I had to withdraw due to a nagging injury. It is certainly very depressing as I would have never imagined me not being able to even attempt the race. Apparently my last race was at the Singapore Youth and Junior thingy championship. 2 months ago I would never have imagined that that day would be the last 400mH race of my B div journey. It is really dampening to end off the season on a low-note as such. You can’t help but feel pitiful for yourself and it’s hard to take it in your stride and move on as everyone says. But it is really the most logical thing to go as the past cannot be changed and we have to make the best of the present to get the best out of the future. So I guess the books are going to replace the spikes and hurdles this period ahead of me. The transition will not be an easy one but I really do hope that I will be able to adjust with support from teachers and maybe friends. Come to think of it, I really don’t have as many friends as I thought I do. Days pass so quickly that you realize the people whom you regarded as friends were merely acquaintances- those you joke around with but won’t fall back on in times of need. Sigh what a sad post this is. From now on, besides putting emphasis on my acad, I guess I wanna try pick up an instrument liek drums or something. Or go back to playing badminton, something I enjoy at the very least. Ciao